As you get to know me, you’ll hear about the many hats I wear, from being a paid speaker and image consultant to the unpaid, but very fulfilling roles of leading bible study, cooking family meals, woes on the tennis court and golf course and especially adventures with my family. When the question of a new opportunity is voiced, I often weigh the option around is this worthy of my time? Similarly, when the dessert tray is presented, I calculate are the additional calories worthy of an additional workout? When a new name keeps getting discussed around the dinner table, I cringe, is this boy worthy of my daughter’s crush? And similar to my co-bloggers, I too get in ruts where I wonder if I am worthy of God’s love today?
Recently I was tucking my youngest into bed and he shared some major observations of God’s goodness and generosity prior to loved ones dying. He was using words we don’t typically use, and he wasn’t scared by what he was saying. It was during these discernments that I caught my breathe and had a quick, silent conversation with God, “God, I am not equipped for this, how am I supposed to respond to him?” My brain was spinning… then a calmness. My breathe returned with the realization that our son was talking straight from the Lord; all I needed to do was refocus on him and listen.
I believe God has a plan for us. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. (Jeremiah 29:11). I believe God knows our inadequacies and insecurities. “From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands”. (Acts 17:26). God also knows our abilities “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine” (Isaiah 43:1) And He still chooses us because He recognizes our value, purpose and importance. I believe God uniquely created me, thus I also have to acknowledge and believe that He placed our son in my womb too, knowing the gifts he would be given, thus making me worthy to be his parent “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb”. (Psalm 139:13) Our children were created for us. It wasn’t an accident or an oversight. It was intentional. My son is wonderfully made – from his smile that lightens the room to his empathetic heart, to his demeanor that draws others to him. So, I pray: “Lord, your works are intentional and wonderful and I pray you will lead me to be the best mom, to instruct, and to encourage this treasure you’ve sent.”
Over the Christmas holiday, my son asked: “When Jesus returns, he’ll probably go to Israel, right? Will we go meet him?” From the mouths of babes! But from his perspective, why wouldn’t Jesus be received like a star athlete, like a celebrity? Why wouldn’t there be a press conference, a stadium full of adoring fans? I am reminded of the first verse he memorized at age 7 and how appealing God’s promise is to all of us. Isaiah 41:10 says, “So do not fear, for I am with you (we are never alone); do not be dismayed, for I am your God (we have a relationship with the Lord). I will strengthen you and help you (He is our guider); I will uphold you with my righteous right hand (He is our protector).”
It is from my feeling of unworthiness to parent my child’s prophecy and discernment, that I am seeking spiritual growth and maturity: from a deeper understanding of scripture and self, to openly sharing my faith, breaking the judgement and comparison cycle and seeking unity. I’m learning about prophecy as a gift from the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 12:1-11), that it is given so that the prophetic one can speak to friends for their strengthening, encouraging and comfort (1 Corinthians 14:3), preferably for the benefit of all the parts of the church (1 Corinthians 14:4).
Seven areas of God’s teaching that I’m seeking for spiritual growth:
1 – Tap into the Advocate (the Spirit) dwelling inside (John 14:26).
2 – Pray and praise God, instead of only asking for provisions (Matthew 6:9-13)
3 – Read and memorize scripture, it is alive and active (Hebrews 4:12-15) and trains us in righteousness (2 Timothy 3:16-17)
4 – Do not let age be a barrier, as Paul taught Timothy (1 Timothy 4:11-16) and (2 Timothy 4:1-5)
5 – Live in a posture of forgiveness (Colossians 3:13) and humility (Ephesians 4:1-3)
6 – Seek friends for strength (Ephesians 2:19-22) and to spread the Great Commission (Matthew 28:18)
7 – Reinforce worthiness!
I’m thankful I don’t have to do this alone. I have an amazing husband who is building into our kids in a way that when they are older, they will not question that there is a loving Big Daddy in Heaven who adores them even more than the Daddy who loves them here. I have a community of spiritual mentors. And I have you – a virtual community of encouraging readers and disciples!
Readers, please comment and share ideas and successes you have found to build into children and friends with the gifts of prophecy and discernment. By sharing, we all benefit and grow our Christian Kingdom here on earth.
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